"What We Knew We Always Had" is a journey through the joys and sorrows of love. What has the power to give the most intense happiness has also the power to cause the most profound anguish. In the beginning, there is love. There is happiness. There are feelings of hope and intense desire. Comfort sets in, and with it the simple joys of companionship. But love is never what it seems, and like most other things in life, there is always something beneath the surface. We feel the heartbreak and initial confusion of loss; the feeling of being out of place. When the dust settles, there is loneliness and regret. The stages of grief set in. First there is denial. The initial reaction is that things can be easily fixed if only love would return. Next comes anger, which brings a multitude of dynamic hostile emotions with it. Confusion is common. Without a sense of purpose we become lost in a world that continues without individuality. Bargaining and Depression soon follow, and it becomes difficult to understand how things could have gone wrong. The sense of loss becomes too much to bear, and with Acceptance comes madness. The anger returns, and hostility can no longer be ignored. When pushed to its limits, unforgivable actions can occur. With the end comes the sad truth: love creates, love destroys.
A sunrise of passion
love blowing through the air,
the warmth of her body
the smell of her hair.
The wind begins to change
Dusk marks the scars of despair.
A brisk chill of the truth
and soon she's not there.
In nights spent alone,
the dark is your friend.
You cry for your wounds,
And brace for the end.
Say you won't leave me empty handed
I'm trying hard to understand this
But in another time in another place
where we never knew...
Well I've been walking down this highway
Another thousand miles behind me
still another thousand 'til I see you
what did I fall into?
Time is lurking in the shadows
Another day goes by
Well Cinderella left for her midnight ball
And left the life she knew behind
Even running down the road I can see
I'm running down the future looking back at me
And even though it seems so hard to get through
Baby when you miss me, remember
I wrote this song for you
Fifteen thousand breaths I've taken
for every one you hear
and falling from my weary eyes
were fifteen thousand tears
I have walked this road in darkness
No light coming from above
Nothing's ever been as hard
as getting over love
With crystal castles crashing to the ground
the emptiness inside
so far away from what I've left behind me
those fairy tales are burning down
Even running down the road I can see
I'm running down the future looking back at me
And even though it seems so hard to get through
Baby when you miss me, remember
I wrote this song for you
Even though we're oh so many miles apart
you're putting back the pieces stolen from my heart
You will always have someone to run to
Baby when you miss me, remember
I wrote this song for you
I'll close my eyes
feel this rushing over me
perfect disguise
something says that this could be
too wrong to be right
but I'm captivated...
Say you won't leave me empty handed
I'm trying hard to understand this
But in another time in another place
where we never knew...
Even running down the road I can see
I'm running down the future looking back at me
And even though it seems so hard to get through
Baby when you miss me, remember
I wrote this song for you
Even though we're oh so many miles apart
you're putting back the pieces stolen from my heart
You will always have someone to run to
Baby when you miss me, remember
I wrote this song for you
Walk with me through a world we've never known
Talk to me like you've never done before
And hold me like it's the last time of our lives
And kiss me like you're dying for one more
Let me peacefully lie in your garden
And feel the wind dance through the air
I can see myself in your eyes like a mirror
while running my fingers through your hair
Your beauty, it surrounds me
Your colors fill my heart
A goddess in my presence
Absolutely everlasting
Trust in me, I will never let you fall
Touch me, your body against mine
Lay with me, I will always keep you warm
Stay with me until the end of time, we'll leave it all behind
An angel in the moonlight
No shadows hide your face
The mystic love I long for
I found it in this place
Your beauty, it surrounds me
Your colors fill my heart
A goddess in my presence
Absolutely everlasting
Your beauty, it surrounds me
Your colors fill my heart
A goddess in my presence
Absolutely...
Absolutely everlasting
In the morning making breakfast in bed
I reach down and gently touch your head
The dawn shines but I'm going slow
I write lines 'cause I have no place to go
Just here with you is all I wanna do
Just lay right here with you, snuggled next to you
The dawn fades and I'm still going slow
The notes play, 'cause I have no place to go
Because..
It's just some Weekend lovin'
Relaxing and enjoying the day
It's just some weekend lovin'
Let the summer music play
Today
Some say love aint something worth holding on to
Well I guess that love just hasn't found you
'Cause my girl she shows me the way
To make you wish that tomorrow...
Tomorrow was still today
It's just some Weekend lovin'
Relaxing and enjoying the day
It's just some weekend lovin'
Let the summer music play
It's just some weekend lovin'
It's just some weekend lovin'
It's just some weekend lovin'
Wishing today will never
never fade away
What lies down the road ahead?
What lies I fear have yet to be said?
A child's eyes may lead the way,
or cause a dream to begin to fray.
The seasons change for better or worse,
love's "bastard child" is nothing
but a curse
Love the loss, lost the love
Counting streets we've walked before
And you... quiet and complacent
Smiling and searching the wind...
I looked at you but you're not there
A note I see blown from the chair
To you... the feeling that needs your eye
You build it, bleed it and care
Wind blows cold and time lays bare
Mouth of blood and death at doors
I climb the steps.... and stare
(With people looking everywhere)
Notes of calming sounds
Of hearts that never had a care (for this, I cry)
Of moments lost before
Of what we knew we always had (a reason why)
I lie here foaming at the mouth
Thinking, but words wont come out
I lie here quiet and Complacent
Smiling and searching the wind
Notes of calming sounds
Of hearts that never had a care (for this, I cry)
Of moments lost before
Of what we knew we always had (a reason why)
I lie here foaming at the mouth
Thinking of what words wont come out
I lie here Quiet and Complacent
Smiling and searching the wind
Notes of calming sounds
Of hearts that never had a care (for this, I cry)
Of moments lost before
Of what we knew we always had
Wind blows cold and time lays bare
Mouths of blood and death at doors
I climb the steps.... and stare
I catch your eye, you turn away
Wish there was something that I could say
All the distance between us, yet you're right beside me
You're close as ever but still just out of reach
And now the night's upon us
You go to leave again
And I wonder, yes I wonder
How long can we pretend?
Where do you go to escape from your pain
Who gives you shelter when you're caught in the rain
Is there someone out there
Who could treat you better than I would, yeah
I'd give you somewhere you could go
Give you the love you know you need
And all I want from you is the chance to lay beside you
And listen to you breathe
Now is there something that you want to say?
I'd do my best to make our problems go away
Do you cry at night? I feel the tears you shed
'cause I can't seem to get your face out of my head
Is the grass really greener on the other side?
is there...
Is there something that you just can't find?
Where do you go to escape from your pain
Who gives you shelter when you're caught in the rain
Is there someone out there
Who could treat you better than I would, yeah
I'd give you somewhere you could go
Give you the love you know you need
And all I want from you is the chance to lay beside you
And listen to you breathe
Take a moment to think this over
I can't ask you to stay forever
But a promise I can make
I won't make the same mistakes
My love lasts a lifetime
and I'm dying when you're gone
Where do you go to escape from your pain
Who gives you shelter when you're caught in the rain
Is there someone out there
Who could treat you better than I would, yeah
I'd give you somewhere you could go
Give you the love you know you need
And all I want from you is the chance to lay beside you
And listen to you breathe
Singing simple words just doesn't fit this song
It goes much deeper than this.
You can't try to tell me that I'm wrong
or there's something that I missed.
I turned myself inside out, bent over backwards for you.
You can't try to change the things you say or the things you can't undo
Don't come calling when you need me, 'cause I don't think I'll be there.
I gave you so many chances, did you ever even care?
I watch the days pass slowly, it's just the cross that I must bear.
But no longer am I haunted by your stare.
You're biggest fool of fools, just a stupid thoughtless bitch.
You deserve whatever you get, I should have known you'd come unhinged.
So go on back to that lying, cheating piece of trash, he's the best you'll ever do.
And listen closely when you hear me laughing, remember it's at you.
Don't come calling when you need me, 'cause I don't think I'll be there.
I gave you so many chances, did you ever even care?
I watch the days pass slowly, it's just the cross that I must bear
But no longer am I haunted by your stare.
And you gave me empty promises
to last me all the while...
Never mind the fact that someday you'll be alone.
Today I'll count the seconds
that things just don't feel right
I'm running out of air to breathe.
And someday maybe if I pretend
you'll fall away and I... I'll let this go...
Don't come calling when you need me, 'cause I don't think I'll be there.
I gave you so many chances, did you ever even care?
I watch the days pass slowly, it's just the cross that I must bear
But no longer am I haunted by your stare.
Two stars will shine as long as I am here
even through the darkness I can see them clear
Tonight is the night to show a new face
A night to step out into the world and show your place
The mask you wear is perfect
No one knows your name
You hold all the cards
And play your twisted game
I hear your life it's screaming
I can taste all of your pain
watching as you slowly go insane
singing your harrowing refrain
I hear your life...
Fighting the emptiness inside
Running but you've got nowhere to hide
Your love and your misery collide
I hear your life...
Another cheap motel room, another lonely soul
you empty out this heart and play your empty role
What goes on inside those broken dreams?
The made up smile is flaunting and hides eternal screams
The mask you wear is perfect
No one knows your name
You hold all the cards
And play your twisted game
I hear your life it's screaming
I can taste all of your pain
watching you slowly go insane
singing your harrowing refrain
I hear your life...
Fighting the emptiness inside
Running but you've got nowhere to hide
Your love and your misery collide
I hear your life it's screaming
Dark as hell, but with a heavenly face
A raging angel never loses grace
But she sneaks behind the scenes
Chasing other people's dreams
yet my heart is the same, still beatin' in your name
We haven't spoken in quite some time
So come on tell me what's been on your mind
But I can't be in the rain
Watching you ignore my pain
'Cause my heart is the same, still beatin' in your name
(You take all the things that we had
and throw it away
all of the things that I am
you lost it)
So you can take your love
it just 'aint good enough
for what I need to be
I'm tired of blaming everything on me
So you can take your love
there's nothing you can say
I'm tired of feeling
so lost and far away
Such simple words a heart will break
And it's far too much for mine to take
When I gave you part of me
the world would never see
It's not too much to ask, I think, for all you promised me
You say you don't need me and my feelings are deceiving
How do you think I feel when you tell me you're wasting all your
happiness on me?
So easy now to see
It's not too much to ask, I think, for all you promised me
(You take all the things that we had
and throw it away
all of the things that I am
you lost it)
So you can take your love
it just 'aint good enough
for what I need to be
I'm tired of blaming everything on me
So you can take your love
there's nothing you can say
I'm tired of feeling
so lost and far away
And I'm gonna stand up from your pulling me down
Because I've had enough of your pushing me around
There's no room in my life for that, I'd say
Hey darling, maybe things are better off this way...
We live our lives like robots on parade
repeating cold and empty motions day after day after day
We live our lives like robots on parade
we traded it all for convenience even gods wouldn't take
Sex, drugs, rock and roll
Lust, trust, human soul
Emotion, devotion, lost in commotion
We dangerously hide
our truths in little lies
How can love survive
If they can't see it in our eyes?
We live our lives like robots on parade
repeating cold and empty motions day after day after day
We live our lives like robots on parade
we traded it all for convenience even gods wouldn't take
Time, it passes us by
settles for a moment and continues to fly
I just can't believe how much has passed
yesterday's today, much further from the last
Tell me, where has the time gone?
Tell me, has it really been that long?
Tell me, why can't we just do it again?
The least we can do is pretend
The last I remember, things were the same
friends and lovers playing foolish games
Now everything has its price
and I can't remember any names
Tell me, where has the time gone?
Tell me, has it really been that long?
Tell me, why can't we just do it again?
The least we can do is pretend
You don't have to ask if I remember
How can I forget these cold Decembers?
Keep moving forward, losing ourselves in the nights
Let's try to forget Septembers
Waiting's not going to put me in front of the line
Pretending won't bring the time back to me
Memories are a gift from time
Wishing for things that may never be
You don't have to ask if I remember
How can I forget these cold Decembers?
Keep moving forward, losing ourselves in the nights
Let's just try to forget...
You don't have to ask if I remember
How can I forget these cold Decembers?
Keep moving forward, losing ourselves in the nights...
How does one start over all the things that one has lived?
As the years went by it was always there, now it never seems to forgive
A thousand tales have been told and yet the years don't show their age
All the books have broken covers, but I still can turn the page
And when the binding breaks and the pages hit the floor
I watch as the dust settles where you used to walk before
Picking up the pieces from where they lie
Scattered across the darkened sky
Chasing patterns in a starless emptiness
Of where my dreams used to lie
I'm reading the lines of your stories, where the pen used to move I see white
Though the pages erase before me, they can't erase this night
Lost in my longing when the daylight goes, I guess there's never any way to know
What'll come tomorrow...
What'll come tomorrow...
The stars will fall tonight
The sky will burn tonight
The world will break tonight
My heart escapes tonight
And when the binding breaks and the pages hit the floor
I watch as the dust settles where you used to walk before
Picking up the pieces from where they lie
Scattered across the darkened sky
Chasing patterns in a starless emptiness
Of where my dreams used to lie
Tides change, the storm blows in,
A battle starts that you could never win.
A wave crashes upon your head,
your soul becomes the living dead.
Thoughts that torment, drive you mad,
for what you knew you always had.
Running through the flames of a burning desire
it has no end, he has no friends
Crouching down, feeling haunted inside
if you only knew what he would do
She lies all alone on the floor
can't take these feelings anymore
Exit signs show her the way
to the end of her dismay
It's your time to shine
a smile commits a crime
His eyes scream with fright
a happy ending for his delight
You arrive just in time to go for a swim
a pool by the bed... a lifeless head
A broken dream through a broken door
yes he was here... The sins of someone to fear
She lies all alone on the floor
can't take these feelings anymore
Exit signs show her the way
to the end of her dismay
It's your time to shine
a smile commits a crime
His eyes scream with fright
a happy ending for his delight
Blood drips from inside
tears fall from his eyes
With a fury of hate
time to seal his fate
It's your time to shine
a smile commits a crime
His eyes scream with fright
a happy ending for his delight
Now your world is upside down,
Drifting on...without a sound.
Rain drips from your hardened face,
your once proud journey...an aimless race.
A blackened heart burdened by pain,
the loss of hope drives you insane.
Though your soul still fights to scream aloud,
Only silence...veiled...under an April Shroud